Enigma

They were once a favorite during my hs days. Rainy days and candles were the perfect pair to the CD. The word definitely has played different roles in my life this far. Can one be enigma-ed? Because I certainly am. I feel very lost with life. I've reached a crossroad where either paths will lead to different outcomes. My rationale is battling with my inner emotions. I have no google, no books, no mentor, to guide me on which route to take. Someone give me a cliffnote.